I was having a great morning, but my husband got mad at me and started cussing at me when I wouldn't listen to his excuses about why it's ok to drink. I told him it was his pattern and it was just a matter of time before it escalate again and the abuse starts again. He's an alcoholic who is verbally and emotionally abusive.

He got mad and started calling me names. He hurt me so I backed away. Then he got passed off that I wouldn't be loving and kiss him, acting like nothing happened. So he stopped talking to me slammed doors and took off.

I don't care he took of, and I rather not have him talking than calling me things. But my stress levels and anger are so high I just want to scream and cry and I'm stuck at work trying to keep it all in....

Sometimes I really hate him. I wish he would listen and leave.

For those of you who start judging and tell me to leave, I have no where to go yet. No family or friends to stay with. I'm already looking for a job and a place away from him and away from this area. I need support not judgment.