I loved my boyfriend we've known each other since we were fourteen. Carved initials into a tree. He sold his soul to the devil so I can love him that type of story now we're 24 and I remember all the Bush songs everclear songs and it hurts thinking about breaking up someone you loved for so long. It was just sad I could feel the love in the words in the music I could feel it when he said he loved me just after all these years together to just see him numb to love scared to open up and be with me he'd rather choose drugs and being single instead of what he wanted times after sex he'd rub my abdomen and say how we would name our children and talk about our future. He asked me to live with him just how can you promise a girl so much and it's over. The happy family the high school sweetheart now its just cruel someone playing with your feelings and walking over you. Treating you bad because they know you won't leave always threatened to break up saying I deserve better instead of being honest if you love someone that love is forever you don't walk away.

I've seen teenage mothers. Homeless moms. Mothers in domestic violence shelters who don't give up so why what's your excuse for hurting me time and time again making me believe there was something here

How do you get over the heart break of someone you thought would always be there someone you could grow old with how do you not feel depressed by the rejection not being good enough the humiliation being avoided while pregnant with his child our first. How do I heal let go of this