Never thought I'd have this problem
I'm so mad that I'm absolutely sick to my stomach. My boyfriend hasn't so much as even touched me in a month and even before then, I was lucky if he wanted sex every other week since I got pregnant (and no, he's not afraid of hurting the baby etc, I guess he just isn't attracted to me right now, I don't know honestly). He keeps sneaking off to jack off in the shower (like almost every single day) despite that I'm completely willing to have sex.
I've never cared before really if he jacked off, but we had plenty of sex before so it was never an issue. I feel Iike he's choosing porn over me and no matter what I do or say, he doesn't seem to want anything to do with me.
Tonight I looked in his phone after he went to sleep (something I never usually would do, but I'm just so pissed off that I guess curiosity got the best of me) and the kind of porn he's been watching makes me feel like he'd rather have someone other than me. Like he specifically searched for porn of women of different races and I see him shamelessly check out women constantly in front of me when we're out in public.
I honestly am so emotionally and physically unsatisfied in this relationship that I feel like leaving him over what I saw tonight.
I'm not really asking for advice or anything I guess, mostly just venting. If anyone wants to tell me that I'm not crazy though, that would be perfect lol. These hormones have me feeling insane.
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