Just needed to rant..

I'm 24 weeks now. At first, I really didn't want my baby. I felt I was too young and not ready, and I was afraid. But over the last few months I've grown a bit, mentally. I have a good support system from family and friends and it gives me courage.

I've never had any natural maternal instincts. I loved cats and dogs more than kids, and it's easier to treat animals for me. But this pregnancy I've been trying really hard. I love my son. He's my motivation to try and be the best mom I can possibly be. I can't say I'm ready for motherhood, but I'm learning and ready to continue learning.

No one else really believes in me like they claim. And normally I don't care what anyone thinks of me, but my own mother keeps making jokes to her friends about how when the baby is born, he'll be hers, not mine. She's even joked and said she was going to call CPS and have me sign over my rights because I'm not fit to be a real mom.

Now, before everyone goes and start talking shit about my mom, just don't. She isn't the best mom, but she's a damn good one. I'm only ranting because she has no filter and thinks the things she says are funny, when they aren't. It's her twisted sense of humor.