So confused

I am so confused. I have been having tons of pregnancy symptoms AF is due Tuesday 3/29 so I took a test the other day it came back as a faint line so this morning I decided to take another but digital. It comes back, no. My heart just sunk. This is why I try not to get excited or anything the one time I did I got let down, again. Trying so hard is exhausting I'm just about to say when it's meant to happen it will & call it a day.