So hard to wait to do the test

This is what October looked like. Now I have to wait till Sunday at least for s test. 
I'm 40 yes old. TTC #2. Still nursing #1 which makes it more complicated. 
But I'm going crazy now. Super period like sensations since 48h. Went up three times last night for toilet. 
And I know all that can just be made up by my head. 
Argh... Anyone have a time machine ?
Anyone feel the same?