Depression

Seila
As a mother who used to struggle with depression I am terrified that it will come back now that my son is here. I have been feeling a bit blue but I'm hoping it's just baby blues and not pp depression. I am breastfeeding so I know it's a bit harder. Today I had a mini breakdown when my son wouldn't stop crying so then I started crying. I'm also affraid of the relationship between my husband and I. He is doing everything possible to be as much help to me but I just feel meh! I see all these other mothers and they make it look so easy. I'm terrified I won't be a good mother :( Does anyone else have any words of wisdom for this ftm?