Just need to vent

I'm on day 68 of my cycle...wtf?!?! I usually have long cycles (40-50 days) but never anything like this. Got a peak cbd on Feb 28th but doctors think I never actually ovulated. Since then I've been testing with wondfo's and have been getting dark lines but no sure positives. Blood work came back ok-negative blood pregnancy test so I'm just waiting...and waiting! I have an appointment to see a fertility specialist on the 26th which can't come soon enough. I know it'll happen soon but I'm just discouraged. After 2 losses I want my rainbow 😔