Just Understand Me

I've finally gotten the nerve to admit the fact that I probably have postpartum depression. I cry a lot and I get angry easily. Two days ago I had a manic episode and went balistic on my fiancé. I was yelling crying and I threw something in his closet. I felt so embarrassed after it all happened. I sat down and told him what was going on with me. I even made an appointment to see a doctor that way I can get help and my fiancé can learn how to cope as well. I can tell he doesn't understand what is going on because last night he said he is tired of the bullshit and is ready to give up. He says I made him feel like he doesn't matter to me. I'm extremely sad now because I keep trying to tell him my hormones are screwed up at this time. I'm stressed and I feel insecure about my looks since the baby. I was hoping I would never go through this but life tends to throw us curve balls from time to time.