I'm scared to test 😢 any advice? Damn hormones!

I know after all my symptoms i have described and pics i posted of what's going on with my body many of you have told me and think i may be pregnant. Even though i been having what i thought were my "periods" after unprotected sex i had on January and February with the guy i was seeing before and after that my two last periods been short and light and spotting i think i may be also but i just feel so afraid to test. If it's positive i know i will keep it but im afraid of what he will tell me. We're not talking right now and i know some things will have to change with my life. I'm 23 but ill also be making a doctor appointment either way if it's negative or positive but I'm just scared because even if it's negative might it mean there's something wrong with me? 😔