I've become so negative

I've become so negative, about everything. 
I don't even want to test anymore. 
I don't even want to check cervical position
or BBT, or CM-that doesn't even require work. 
I'm sick of trying. 
I'm sick of the negatives 
I'm sick of it all. 
So now, 
Now I'm negative. 
And now,
Now I think I'm giving up.