I f-ing haaaaate BJs.

I really wish I could like them. I try SO hard to do it. Just the idea of it makes me gag. I mean I'm in my late 20s. This is ridiculous that I can't do this! Help 😩 I'm desperate. I really want to just please him so badly. I know he likes oral but I can't bring myself to tell him I hate them, I don't know how to do it, and I gag when I do it. That's why I don't let him do it to me. Anyone else like me? Anyone was like this and got through it? I kind of tasted him and it doesn't taste bad. The texture of precum maybe is what I hate. Should I be constantly spitting out? I tried left thumb. I'm gonna drive myself crazy. 
I need that blowjobs101 course immediately haha