Postpartum anxiety!

Is anyone else experiencing anxiety? I thought motherhood was gonna be so easy but it's not I can't shower in peace because I'm thinking my baby might be crying I definitely can't drive I have the mirror so I can watch my baby while driving but I panick the other day I went to my 6 weeks pp appointment and when I was at the office the fear of my baby crying while talking to my doctor gave me this horrible anxiety I had to call my brother so I could relax I used to deal with depression and anxiety I was under medication the doctor told me not to take it anymore for the baby so I did and never experienced anything again I was happy I don't breastfeed but my baby likes to be on my boob getting like drops of milk lol so I let her because that's the only way she can go back to sleep but now I kinda wanna make her not to want my boob as a pacifier because I've been taking the medication I used to take and I don't want her to take any on those little drops maybe I'm wrong but that's what I think I told my hubby yesterday about it but he doesn't understand he thinks it's a joke I have no family where I live and were not in conditions to pay a psychiatrist for this anxiety I really don't know what to do I feel hopeless at this point