Hurt and confused

My biggest fear in the whole world is that I won't be able to have children. That is what I want most in life, I want to be a mom. You see my mom has 6 girls, 5 while on bc then after #5 had her tubes tied and still had #6. My dad is 45 and has a 2 year old little girl with his gf. So in my mind, it should be in my genes. Right?

Well my husband and I have now been ttc for almost 2 years. I've gotten discouraged time and again. Every pregnancy announcement gets me jealous and angry and builds more on my depression. So I finally built up the nerve to go to a specialist...

We just got my husband's results back today. He heard me answer the phone and yet he still played his game not paying any attention. After the call, I had to wait for his game to be at a good stopping point to discuss the results. They weren't good. His count was great but nothing was moving, not 1. So what does my husband do? He starts to make jokes about the situation. I couldn't even get out the next step out Dr wants to try.

I'm just wondering if anyone else has dealt with a similar problem (sperm) not my husband's rude behavior. What happened? I'm just feeling so down and not sure where to go from here. Thank you for taking the time to read, anything is appreciated.