HELP PLEASE TMI

I masturbate probably once or twice a month normally really close to my cycle. I only stimulate my clit and I decided to try something different and applied a lot of saliva 💦 to my fingers and rubbed it vigorously. Normally if I do it twice a day my clit will be swollen for a while ,but most importantly will I get an infection from the saliva 💦??? I tried to stop masturbating but I just get so horny. How do I get my mind off of sex. It's on my mind 24/7. Btw I'm practicing abstinence. I feel so guilty and dirty after masturbating.