TTC for just over a year now...

Shannon
We've been trying to conceive since January 2015 and not even a glimmer of hope-I'm absolutely terrified of discovering that it might never be in our futures (completely catastrophizing-I know) but given my medical hx in conjunction with a battle in my late teens to mid-twenties with substance abuse 
(sober now since Sept 2007) shame has been lurking around me lately:( 
I did one round of fertility testing in July 2015 and the conclusion was 'no ovulation'. From that point I was emotional burnt out so I never moved any further with my doctor. However, the following month-now Sept 2015 I purchased at-home ovulation test stripes. That particular month I read negative. I continued the strips every month since than and they've all read positive. Let down after let down I decided to put them all away (out of sight) and simply be for the past couple of months-I've taken recommended vitamins,pre-seed lub, tightened up my diet etc and nothing:(
I'm seeking suggestions, realistic/possible outcomes and guidance on where I should even start the process of TC.