Epidural? Natural??

So I'm a first time young mother I'm 32 weeks and I'm 18 I'm struggling with this pregnancy because my mother is not all there, she is and will be willing to do anything I ask but I'm not comfortable asking her questions like any questions you should be able to ask your mother. I've told my partner in not sure j want anyone knowing I'm in labour until she's here because I want to be comfortable and not stress and my mom and older sister seem to think they are pregnant and make my decisions. I've told my mom I might get the epidural because I'm terrified of having to get stitches or feeling them cut me like beyond petrified, and my mom always gets offensive and says no the hell your not you can have laughing gas your doing it natural, I really don't want the epidural but I'm scared of the pain afterwords am I just getting myself worked up or is laughing gas going to be good enough to not focus on them cutting me or anything I do not plan on getting a c-section unless it's the only way, I'm terrified of giving birth and scared that when my water breaks I'll over react and be dramatic but so far I've had a really good pregnancy people say you get really moody and annoyed of everything but I just can't wait to hold my girl and raise this angel