Green with envy!

Ugh I know it is insanely childish but I do not want to go meet my new nephew because I am so jealous and sad. She knew I was TTC and she got pregnant accidentally and then drank her whole pregnancy. It eats me up! I would never treat my pregnancy/baby that way and it's hard for me to get pregnant! I'm so sad. Just sad. I don't want to go but we have a huge family dinner planned to meet the new baby.