Sex after stillbirth!!!!

Bailey
My husband & I just lost our babygirl in Feb at 28 weeks. We have two boys & birthing a child is nothing for me. But as most know still birth is very hard. It's pretty much two births. Your baby then the placenta. Well anyways it all happened so fast that I wasn't able to get pain management. While trying to deliver the placenta I had a bad experience. It was sooooo painful. All I remember was me screaming stop stop stop but the doctor [on call doctor at that 😔] just kept going deeper & harder & wouldn't lay off a little... 
It has scarred me! I can honestly say I know a little of what a rape victim feels like. I'm so messed up psychologically! My husband is understanding but getting impatient. 
HELPPPP