Give up or keep trying

Have you ever felt like you would do anything and everything for someone ? Even if you guys can go back and fourth repeatedly, your heart still yearns and craves them. Well that's me. I'm so tired of the arguing and the bullshit and childishness but I love him and don't want to leave him. We've spent time apart but always get back together but now we're together but my heart doesn't yearn for him the same anymore. If I don't talk to him my stomach and my heart doesn't pain anymore. My hopes for our future together isn't the same anymore. I don't even think I'm in love with him anymore.😞😔😪😓😥💔💔