Scared to breast feed again....

My first born is going to be 9 in July. With him breastfeeding was the most horrific experience. I was in the 10-20% of women that develop mastitis. And then I fall into the 3% of women that develop a breast abscess from the mastitis. On top of that mine was so large it had to be surgically removed. Worst month of my life. They kept it as a open incision and pack it and clean it regularly so it can heal from the inside out. If any of you have developed a breast abscess I'm sure you can agree with me on how excruciating the pain was. Anyways. I'm having my second baby due Aug 24. Up until a few days ago I was set on not even breastfeeding at all. But I had a dream a couple nights ago that I was breast feeding my baby and it was a happy experience. Now I feel I should give it another shot. After all I want to do what's best for my baby. But the thought of what happened before almost makes this experience one I feel I will not enjoy. I'm curious if any other women out there have went through what I've gone through and overcame that fear and breast fed with future children?