I think the reason why I want to have a baby so bad is because I want to have someone to take care of. To have someone to give a wonderful childhood to and to show them what unconditional love feels like. My SO and I both have had rough childhoods and honestly, I want to have a life with him. He's an amazing guy and everything month that goes by that AF comes, I feel like I'm not doing what I was out here for. I feel like I can't give him everything he deserves and to do the one thing I want to do. We do absolutely nothing to prevent it and it just doesn't happen. And it hurts. I feel so disappointed.