Feeling pressured... Need to vent VERY LONG :/

So my SO tell me everyday for the pat 8 weeks to breast feed the baby., & it's just like dude shut the eff up already. I'm tired of hearing you., you know?  Either way he says that I should be breastfeeding cause that's ehat the doctor says and the BF is best and blah blah blah.. But I'd rather my baby be fed then her crying her eyes out because mommy isn't producing enough milk., he thinks I'm not trying hard enough and that if the roles were reversed he would do it., && it's just like no you wouldn't. It's hard., it's difficult to hear your baby cry for over an hour while trying to breast feed her., && once you give her the food she's been wanting sobs as if she's cried for days., I am not doing that for my baby., she doesn't deserve that., she's going to be fed any way I can because I am her mother && I take care of her 24/7 because all you want to do is play video games and watch YouTube.. I decide what's best for her., not some Doctor you just met., not your mother because your an only child., not my family., not yours., but me because I created this beautiful child., I know what's best for her., it's a part of my DNA as a mother....