The end ..

I am trying to leave my marriage. I have teied before, and it just didnt happen. When I talk to my husband he goes on this rant about how he is a peice of s#!$ and he cant keep anything good. I just dont know how to be .. final. To say Im done and not get sucked back in.. He is literally draining the life out of me. I dont know how to not care how hurt ge seems to be, or not be worried about what kind of crap he is gonna do.. last time we separated.. he drank.. a lot.. and I tried every day to encourage him, and told him I loved him.. he saw someone during that time.. then came back and just told me he was coming home. I feel like such a coward. I know a part of why I keep allowing this.. is because I dont work .. I am fully supported by him... and have a child who goes to the dr no less than once a week. I have made an effort to get a job.. but havent been very succesful to this point.. I am just at the very end ...

I am not sure financially what my plan would be.