TTC while fat

Hi! I am not ttc yet. We will start trying in four months.

I am fat. I weigh nearly 300 lbs and I have tried to adopt a healthier lifestyle in the past and have really struggled with it.

I worked really hard on learning to love and accept myself as I am and I am finally in a place where I am truly happy.

I know losing weight is going to be a big topic once I am actively ttc or pregnant and I am scared.

Trying to lose weight has always been a really demoralizing experience for me, and I am worried that I will just fail again.

I menstruate regularly and to the best of my knowledge ovulate regularly so I am not interested in losing weight for that reason.

I am just having a hard time reconciling losing weight for ttc/pregnancy and loving/accepting myself as I am.

Has anyone in here gone through the same type of situation?