Eating Disorder

I'm 26 years old and have been battling bulimia for three years. (Side Note: I also have PTSD) 
After counseling for my PTSD, I told my mom I was better, and my husband doesn't know this...
But I'm still binging and purging. 
It's awful and I HATE it, but I can't help it. Now I'm afraid it's going to begin hurting my fertility and worse. 
There are no counsellors nearby and I am struggling to stay ahead of my mental illnesses after moving across the country. 
I really needed to tell someone.