TMI Devastation! Please read

This baby was suppose to be my miracle child! I had my tube's tied on in 2013 then a reversal on 10/23/07. Hubby and i found out we were pregnant in March!!!! Which was suppose to be a normal healthy pregnancy. Baby wasn't in the tube's he was right where he needed to be in the womb. Went to my first ob apt on April 7th. I saw the little fella on the ultrasound and low and behold he had a heartbeat! Brought tears to my eyes hearing the little heart beating so strong 😢. His gestational age was 6wks and 4days. My due date was November 27th. A little thanksgiving baby! Well yesterday i woke up drove my kids to school. On the way home i felt wet....i thought o lord i peed myself. Only to discover that i was gushing blood! 😭 I told my husband and we immediately went to the ER. I was suppose to be 11wks 3days! They finally saw me (not a real emergency i guess)! After 2hrs in waiting area. They ordered a ultrasound and bloodwork. We were in the room for another 2hrs. I got so aggravated no one was coming in so i turned the ultrasound machine on myself! And proceeded to find my baby. Found the baby no problem! But to my dismay as soon as i saw the little guy i new something was wrong. I told my husband thats not what a 11wk old fetus should look like! 😭 The Dr finally came in and said that machine is really old and i needed to go to the ultrasound technical team upstairs. So they brought me up stairs. The technician was a BI*** i said all i want to know was if the baby had a heartbeat. She replied im not allowed to tell you anything...Good or Bad. So i said you don't have to just let me see the monitor....i know what to look for! So this woman completely turns the monitor around to block my entire view! She said the Dr will have to read the results to you. I knew in my heart that he was still in there but he wasn't alive. We went back down to the room and the Dr came in and said "We weren't able to detect a heartbeat" I asked her what the gestational age of the fetus was and she said 7wks 3days...I was suppose to be 11wks 3days! That means i have been walking around for a month with my DESEASED Child inside me!!!! My heart shattered in a million pieces! I can not stop crying i think im going to be mourning this loss for the rest of my life!

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