Vent....Im just lost

Me and my boyfriend(Who i love soooo much) have been ttc for about 5 months...Nothing has happend yet(Just alot of scares and BFN) So after a while he told me "Lets just stop trying and it will happen". I always love his advice because hes usually right....But for some weird reason i dont think its going to happen....We never used condoms(Ever) and when he does finish its usually inside...I dont have PCOS or anything...I track what i can...My CM and Cervix...Im almost kinda lost....All my friends are either having kids or planning Gender Revels(Which i dont want to attend but thats another story) Its almost like im waiting for something thats never going to happen....I dont even think i want kids anymore after this....I dont know what to do.....I just feel weird about how after having unprotected sex and never getting pregnant(NOT ONCE)