Renting

Chelsea
So I don't really have anyone to talk to and I just need to get this all out because I'm starting  to go crazy. I'm so stressed out with everything going on in my life, it seems that I try to do good then something comes in the way and stops the good things from happening. First thing I'm stressed out about is my relationship with my fiancé and I. I'd say we started having problems at least a year ago we've been together over 2 years  and it's only got worse. A lot of good things have happened since then but the fighting between us has just got worse. We can never agree on things and our problems never get solved because of him. As of now we just keep thinking we should break up if it's what's best but we don't want to but can't agree on things so we will just argue again and again and etc. The second thing I'm stressed out about is money.... Everyone is I'm sure. Then I'm stressed out about is we have also been trying to have a baby for over a year now and at least 8 or more of our friends are having their second child this year... It's depressing I do have pcos so I know it can take awhile but it's hard  , something you want so bad you can't seem to get. We haven't really been trying since with fighting and possibly breaking up that wouldn't be a good situation. Then I'm stressed out with my mom, she has been living with my fiancé and I over a year. My fiancé and I have never been alone we have always had a roommate. So with my mom she has been different for awhile. I'm pretty sure it's her depression that's causing it, depression runs in our family. But what hurts is she used to use drugs and she using again and I can tell. She stays up all night, and then for the most part sleeps all day. She just stays in her room all the time. She recently was in the hospital for wanting to kill herself so yeah it's depression but idk I hate seeing my mom this way it's really messing with me and making me depressed. She also doesn't have a job and always get fired or something. She did have one but then that's when she started to get sick and her depression set in. Then the third thing I'm stressed out about is my grandparents and my little sister. Too much to explain but in short story when my I  was 16 they kicked me out for dating a 23 year old which I had ask them and my gma said no but I did it anyway and for 7 months our relationship was a secret until they found me at his house because his cousin snitched on us but it was a good thing I went to live with my mom then and she finally came around and let me see him but the thing is ever since my gparents kicked me out they let my little sister who's 17 do whatever she wants and they even helped her buy a bmw and I paid for BOTH of my cars myself. She recently tried to kill herself and came very close she was in icu for awhile. Now recently she started dating a 21 year old and that pisses me off, it's basically the same thing as what I was doing and yet she's not kicked out. She isn't grateful for anything and she gets in trouble all the time and disrespects my gparents but they are dumb anyways so they let her. The cops have been there idk how many times since they kicked me out. Then she also was in juvie for about 2 weeks not to long ago. She is a hot mess and we don't even talk like sisters anymore.... Oh she also has stole from my house and she my gparents won't let her over at my house. So I feel as if my gparents don't love me they gave up on me so easily when I was the good one who has a job Graduated high school early has 2 cars my own house and etc and my sister is doing what with her life... Nothing .... I feel as if I want to just give up I don't feel good enough for anyone or anything and I'm also fat so that doesn't help stresses me out also... I just don't eat anymore . I know my life could be worse but idk I'm not happy at all