TTC Month number 8...here we go again...

AF has just left me for another cycle this month, and I have my predicted "most fertile" windows (one from Glow, the other from another similar App - Ovia...both different predictions)

Every month up until now, I've felt relatively positive and upbeat about TTC but this time around? I couldn't be less enthused if I tried. I finally feel rather "what's the point?" Like I've already accepted it's just not happening and we'll still be in this position two++ years down the line and it's quite a moody hurdle to jump. ***

Does anyone else go through this? How do you pick yourself back up and 'get back on the horse' for want of a better expression?

***yes I'm a pessimist...can you tell? 😂