I'm freaking out help please

I have chronic back probelms, scoliosis and I can't feel parts of my back and I have refocus ours amounts of pain and I have random uncontrollable body love myself. My friend has the same issue, not as much pain but she just got the surgery.  I'm not a candidate for the surgery but I have so much pain and I have tried EVERYTHING I'm going to meet with her doctor in 2 weeks but I'm so scared that he is just gonna say something I have already tried. Any advice or ideas?