So stressed .

Its almost fathers day... As I've always been close to my dad...no this isn't related to pregnancy. But I need to vent. My dad goes to prison on may 31st for some secrets he had been hiding from us.. Right before fathers day. I am so heart broken that he won't be here for the birth of my second child or fathers day or even my 21at birthday. I have to work father's day and I am not mentally prepared to do so. Trying not to stress because of this baby but its hard because I am literally broken right now. He's always been my go to person... How do I even begin to cope with the fact he won't be around anymore when I've always been a daddy's girl ?? I pray every single night and that's all I can do .