As we sat there looking at our 10w bundle of joy on the screen I couldn't help but to smile and just stare. The technician didn't say anything to me only that the doctor would be with me. The news came that there wasn't a heartbeat. Worst day of my life.

Seven months later I am expecting my rainbow baby. Upon taking the test and sitting there with my husband waiting for results... I never felt so many different emotions all at once. Of course he was happy. As am I. But I am terrified of getting to excited due to the possibility of another miscarriage. Although I haven't been stressed about it and haven't even thought to much about it. At night when I lay down and sleep my dreams are horrible. I dream every night that I lose this baby too. And then I wake up at 3:37 am. Every morning. I'm hoping I can find enjoyment, peace, comfort, and happiness with this little one. Just taking it day by day. 

Thanks for reading my sad soppy rant. Haha

Hope all the Mommas out there are having a beautiful day.