Really bumbed out! ?

I am just really bumbed about this. I feel like we are never going to get pregnant. I have been off bc for over 2 years. The dr says im fine so i dont know whats going on. I had a 10 late period last month and got my hopes up. This month I spotted pink for 2 days on sat and sun and have taken 2 tests and both neg. Period is due next sat. Im confused and hurting. It feels like everyone is getting to expirence the joys of having a baby but im just sitting by watching and crying bc it hasnt happened for me. Im about to just give up. All my friends are having or had kids even my twin did. I feel left out. ??????