I think my body hates me

Ja
AF is 8 days late, on day 2 I had one light pink smear of spotting then nothing but thick creamy cm, even a few hours ago. I have the pee sticks coming tomorrow from Amazon, I've been queasy this whole week. 
I just went to use the restroom and AF is here. 
It's so fucking unfair, esp when everyone I know and their damn dogs are popping out babies left and right. I feel like such a failure!
Sorry, I just needed to vent and have a good cry