Scared of Life 😰

Well, tomorrow I go to the doctor to get a pregnancy test done because I've missed my period this month. I've already taken two and both came back negative but they were home tests so I just thought going to a doctor would be better. Also getting back on birth control. I'm kind of freaking out because I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and it's making me gain a lot of weight. It's so hard to lose this weight too no matter what. I even got to this point I no longer feel hunger. I only eat meals because I know it's not healthy to skip. I'm really stressed out and wish I could just relax.