Reasons not to give up

Gunce • Head of research at Glow. Unwilling infertility expert. 2 kids after 6 IVF treatments.

When you are trying to conceive, things can get very overwhelming, very fast. And it is not unusual to want to just throw in the towel - especially if you hve been trying for a year or more with no success. I understand. Believe me, I get it. 

I have PCOS with a side of endo. I am overweight (thanks to the PCOS). But when I started TTC at the age of 28 - none of this entered my mind. I had NO IDEA that it would be difficult for me to get pregnant. And that even if I did - I would be at increased likelihood for a miscarriage.

I just thought that all you had to do to get pregnant was to start having unprotected sex.

Boy, was I wrong.

Month after month, and then whole years went past with no hope in sight. It was excruciating seeing all my friends, some younger than me, get pregnant. I felt like that one neglected popcorn kernel who could not figure out how to pop. I cried buckets of tears.

But through it all - I knew there were reasons not to give up. I felt the calling to motherhood stronger than anything else in my life. I knew I was destined to be a mother - hopefully a great one at that. It was just a matter of time. It took 4+ years for my dream to be realized. 

To keep me going through all that I made list of reasons to NOT to give up. (Below I share a few). I ask this morning that you all add to my reasons, with your own.

1. My husband deserves to be a father. He will be an incredible father.

2. I want to kiss baby feet. I want to snuggle into a baby's warm neck. I want that baby to mine.

3. If I give up on this desire - this thing that I want more than any other - I won't be me anymore.

4. I'll be damned if I have to carry around these DD all my life, if I don't get to someday feed a baby with them.

5. I really need a reason to read Harry Potter again and again. 

(So this is me with my boy - About 5 years after I first starting TTCing - accomplishing #2 on my list.) 

 

What are you reasons?