This past Friday I miscarried at home. I had this feeling for about 2 days that something wasn't right. I called my OB and followed their instructions and believed that everything was going to be ok.

I ended up miscarrying in the bath while home alone. Now I can deal with miscarriage itself but the baby came out with everything. The fact that I not only saw but held our beautiful little baby is the part that hurts the most. I could see all of our baby's features: noise, eyes, fingers and toes. Feeling so helpless.

I ended up needing an ambulance to the hospital where I went into the OR for a suction D&C. Now, the image of our precious little one is everywhere. It hurts so much.

During my stay at the hospital, it turned out that I am rh negative. My OB never told me after my initial blood work so my pain is currently being curb by anger. I'm just a hot mess of emotions at this time.