I need some one to tell me what they think about this

Hey don't judge me 😩😩😩 but  I'm engaged to the best man a woman can ask for we have been together for almost two years he does any and every thing to make me happy infact he just brought me a 2016 Jetta last week i couldn't ask for more he's always there for me and he always puts me first but for some reason I can't get over my ex of five years who has raised my son like his own and still does idk what I should do I care about my man and I don't wanna hurt him but although my ex is having a hard time getting himself back on track I'm willing to let everything I have go for him