Miscarriage

So it's been confirmed that I have had a miscarriage. It hurts me really bad because I was really looking for to a second little one. It was kind of my fault it happened but I didn't "open my mouth"...

The day before I went to the doctor a couple of days ago, I was spotting. Which is pretty normal. The day I went to the doctor, he did something sort of like a pap. He swabbed, spray the inside and did something else I can't put my finger on but it hurt. With me being in pain after he did that, I asked "What you just did won't effect me being pregnant will it?" The look on his face scared me. He asked why didn't I tell him before he had done it because he wouldn't have done so. Then he said nothing bad will happen or whatever. So that day I bled but not alot . ( the appointment was on the 15th of this month )

Yesterday, I bled but not too bad but I went to the hospital. They said it was a possible miscarriage happened. So today I went again because my stomach was hurting and I bled like I was on my cycle and they said I miscarried.

I cried to myself because it probably was all my fault for me not saying anything cause he look like he was lying about "nothing will happen"