Underweight 🙁

I just had my first prenatal appointment yesterday. I don't own a scale so it was a surprise that I'm only weighing 111 lbs. For my height my recommend weight is 120 lbs.😭  I am disappointed because I thought I had been doing really good. I thought I was at a healthier weight. I don't restrict my food. I don't shy away from calorie dense foods. I have just always been skinny. 
I hate this feeling. I hate that people tell me I'm going to blow away in the wind. 
🌬🍃 I hate feeling weak and insubstantial. I was a lot better off know knowing the number.