Always depressed rant

I'm not sure if it's because I'm having a child and I'm not married or if it's because of all the family deaths I have had this year. Every day I wake up and I'm just sad. My life has always been a struggle but they say it's supposed to get easier. From what I see it's only getting worse. I have no friends to hang out with and the one friend I do have lives far away. I don't have a car so it's not like I can go visit her. I'm very excited to be having a child even though people say I'm too young. My view is that if you make it seem bad people will automatically think the same. I know my boyfriend loves me and says he doesn't want to get married because people will think it's a shotgun wedding but I don't care! I would be fine if we were even engaged. I can't even talk to him about it because I know it makes him feel bad. Anyway... Rant over...