A month ago, my husband attempted to commit suicide. He failed, and he went to a behavioral center to get help. Since then, we have been living apart. We have no vehicle right now due to his suicide attempt, so what should have been a weekend visit ended up to me staying here for two weeks as no one could give me a ride home (I live an hour away).

He's been cutting and burning himself so he decided to go back to the behavioral center. While in the ER (they required him to get medical clearance first), he attempted suicide again. He had asked me to bring his medication and I did. They had him on one on one with someone looking after him and I, being pregnant, needed to pee. I left my bag with his medication on the table and he took a bunch of pills.

I can't handle this stress. I'm pregnant with our second child and our first is only two years old. I frequently have contractions due to the stress and some days I cannot stop crying. I go about my entire day crying and trying to hide it from my daughter.

Before all this happened, we were talking about divorce. Now, I feel guilty that this may have driven him to it… I found some hope in our marriage after he quit drinking (after the first suicide attempt), but now I'm thinking I just can't handle what is going on here. Is it wrong of me to divorce him while he's going through all this? I've tried being as supportive as possible but it's tearing me apart, to the point where I feel suicidal myself. I have struggled with depression and anxiety myself, and I have three suicide attempts on my record as well (all years apart however). I just don't understand how life could go from completely normal routine to this literally overnight.

Edit: I have been getting treatment myself. Therapy along with medication. I have severe OCD so I always need to have at least a therapist. Recently started medication again because of everything that is going on. Didn't want to do it while pregnant or breastfeeding, but this route is better than suffering without the extra support.

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