I lost my virginity last night!! Detailed story lol

I am a mom of two. I've always been afraid of anal for the obvious reasons...(it hurts, queefing I can deal with but... Farting 😷... And i don't know pooping?) but I've been wanting to give it to my so because he knows what he's doing ei using lots of lube and HE GOT THE NUMBING LOOB 🙏🏼thank you jesus🙏🏼 so I took a Xanax last night cause I have anxiety esp wen trying to fall asleep. He gave me a full body massage and started messing with me from behind while I was laying down. I told him I was ready and I could feel him lighting up lol. I asked him to be gentle . Hand gulls of LOOB later it was in there and he was very proud of me 😂 after wards he got up and lit a candle and ran the shower for me (very sleepy from the Xanax still) he got in with me and washed me up and gave me ibuprofen . We got back into bed and he rubbed my back until I fell asleep 💞 I'm very thankful for the one I picked and I got to get my virginity taken by the right person this time, the man I'm in love with. My husband ☺️😍