Terrified.

I never thought trying for a baby would be so hard, but here I am literally terrified to get pregnant again. I had my first miscarriage at 6 weeks in February. I got pregnant again a month later and had my 2nd miscarriage In April. After that I went on birth control but I really hate the way it affects me, so I stopped it. My husband and I agreed on trying again after my current cycle ends, but now that it's so close im terrified of getting pregnant again and I'm debating on waiting a few more months. Has anyone else had 2 miscarriages in a row and gone on to have a successful pregnancy? I guess I just need some positivity to get through this.