Anti-part in depression....

Since being pregnant I have been a mess. Not I KNOW that hormones can make you sad or emotional or moody! I'm well aware!😟 but I am quite literally feeling down almost all day every day. I try to keep busy by cleaning, writing in a journal, talking to friends or family. Watching a show or crocheting and knitting.... But nothing is working. I just keep crying and crying. I just celebrated my 10 year anniversary but now today and a few times this pregnancy I am close to just giving up. Every marriage has its issues. Avery relationship does. But it just seems like it's too much for my husband right now and apparently the last 4 years have been"nothing special". I know that if I wasn't pregnant I'd be more angry or irritated about this but right now all I can do is cry and cry. I know that if a separation needs to happen then it will be best but of course I don't want it. To make matters worse my car broke down. It's extremely hard to work I'm in so much pain. And if I leave I'll be towns away with a parent until I can get a car and such. Of course this is not what I want. None of it is. But I'm feeling so sad. I just want to know hat things will be ok and hat I'm not the only one with hormones making them this sad. I really am feeling worse then I ever have. Any encouraging words or helpful hints? And marriage counseling is out of the question I have brought it up many times it will never happen with him. ☹️ anyways please some kind words y'all! Thank you.