IM A BAD MOM!!!! 😢

It's my first day home with my babies and I'm already crying.  My dog is depressed because she's nervous and isn't getting attention, I feel like I'm not giving enough attention to the each of the babies.  One of them stopped breathing, he does this thing when he's eating he just stops breathing and he did it longer than normal today and it scared me so much! And then I couldn't get the other baby to finish his bottle! I'm so sad.  I don't know how I'm going to be able to manage this, I already feel like a complete failure! I'm so scared and sad and nervous, will I ever stop checking their little chests to check their breathing???  😭 tell me I can do this please! 🙏🏼