Another month wasted...another month empty

Tried so hard this month not to think about it too much as everyone says..stress doesn't help, overthinking it doesn't help, try and relax...blah blah!! So booked a holiday..sat in Turkey on our last day of a wonderful holiday and boom...the bitch arrives a day early and I'm overwhelmed with sadness and grief for my empty aching womb. Was hoping I could go home with some positive news and some.exciting but it looks like life likes to hit me with the realisation that I'm not a mother and won't be anytime soon. And to top it all off...even more happy pregnancy announcements on Facebook...the girl I sit next to at work is having a baby girl everything she wanted...why can't it be me?? I'm lost, worn down and empty without my little ray of sunshine...where are you?😢