how is your SO holding up?

I feel like this ivf #1 is a failure. i test july 4 and i  bleeding and have clots :-(. while on progesterone and estrogen. my husband never seems concerned or bothered by this entire process and says i worry too much and he is more hopeful than me he feels. i was really hopeful until the bleeding and clots.  i just dont undeestand why he isnt sad sometimes (at least i dont c it). we suffer fr male factor infertility. i dont think he really gets how this does hurt sometimes. if i aint preg i will prob cry n he dont seem to like that either. i should be able to show emotion without him saying i have no hope