Never had an orgasm...

I'm 20 years old and I've never had an orgasm, ever. I lost my virginity at 17. I've slept with 4 guys. Only one for the past two years. There's been a couple of times where I think I might've maybe been close idek. It's not that I don't have really good sex. But no matter how into it I am or how good it feels or how much I stimulate my clit even while being penetrated at the same time IT never happens. I want to have one. I have even looked up ways online but nothing I've tried has worked for me. And most guys I talk to find it weird. Is it really that weird? How alone am I in this?